- I started and finished reading Zen in the Martial Arts today. I “emptied my cup” (a reference to the book, if that wasn’t obvious) and tried not to be judgmental and skeptical re: the wishy washy language, and ended up getting a decent amount of food for thought out of it. For example, he spoke about self-consciousness interfering with performance; being conscious of trying to beat someone or show off your skill impedes your ability in a way. “There must be the absence of feeling that you are doing it.”
- I’m enjoying UFC Fight pass. I have a goal of watching all of the past Invicta cards, but am making slow progress. I believe, with the extension from the streaming issues in Waterson v Tamada, I have until the 30th. I’m open to suggestions on what to watch.
- I’m having serious martial arts “emotions.” To me, martial arts is supposed to be an escape, so I’m deeply uncomfortable with that. Basically, it seems like one of my training partners is not going to continue, but she won’t say so clearly. So I’m left wondering why, and if I should try to get her to come back, etc. It hurts to have someone leave and have no real answers as to why. I know it shouldn’t be taken personally, but when you bond with someone through practice it definitely feels personal.
- My husband came to pick up the car keys from the gym while I was practicing. Without having said so, I was really excited for him to see the humble place where I practice for the first time. But later his only comment on it was, “where was everyone else?” Maybe he had a picture of it as being a bigger gym than it is, even though I’ve always made it clear we’re small. I don’t really know what I would have expected him to say, but it made me self-conscious, especially with one of my primary training partners disappearing into thin air.
- I met my goal of running a 5k before summer’s end a few weeks ago. Through controlled breathing and forcing myself to keep my pace even, I was able to run the whole time and not get stopped by side cramps. I did it again today, shaving 2 minutes off of my previous time by doing it in 33 minutes. Today I focussed on keeping my core engaged while running as an additional way to fight the cramps, and it also seemed to help.
- I feel like my stand up is coming a long way. I’m not getting as overwhelmed by combinations coming at me, and I’m continuing to move, block and return. My kicks are finding their target and chaining together well. I still never feel as at peace as when I’m rolling, though. I love it for different reasons.
That’s all for now. I continue to lurk on Tumblr and love watching all of your training updates. Keep ‘em coming!